The First Step in the Spiritual Life
By Victor Beshir
The purpose of these spiritual topics is to offer a guide to help you
come closer to God, and thus experience the utmost of His love in your life.
Experiencing His love would change your life dramatically.
So, the invitation here is to get a taste of the LORD, and once you have
done this, you will be able to experience heaven while still living in the
flesh.
Now,
let us read from the Gospel according to our teacher Saint Luke:
Let’s begin these spiritual topics with this question:
What is the first step in Spiritual Life?
As I said before, the first object of this book is to help each other
grow spiritually. Simply because if
you have no spiritual life, you can’t lead others to Christ.
Therefore, the first job of this book is to help you with practical means
that can lead you to the depth of the spiritual life, with the grace of God..
The first step in starting a spiritual life is conviction.
You will reach this conviction when you realize that your eternal life
and salvation are important. At a
certain time in your life, you will come to a conclusion that worldly happiness
– no matter how much happiness it promises - is short and leaves your heart
without inner peace. You will
discover that what the world offers doesn’t fill your heart and your life.
You will continue to search for a more fulfilling life. When you reach
this conviction, you will feel that you have a need for Him in your life.
You may have been one of those people who goes to church regularly,
attend meetings, and perhaps perform services in the church, but so far you have
not reached the kind of spiritual life you hear the preachers talk about.
You start to realize that only going to church does not lead you to what
you are longing for spirituality. You
may say to yourself, "there should be a way to reach the peace and
happiness that I heard about." Absolutely,
there are ways to do this, and God loves and likes to offer you the best way
that is suitable for you.
There are Christians who fight against sins, temptations, and evil with
all their powers. But sooner or
later, they discover that their power is no match against the adversary.
Their hearts cry inside for help from a power which is larger than
themselves. They feel hopeless,
powerless, and defeated. When they
reach that depth of helplessness, they realize their need for Him.
So, whatever your situation is, the spiritual life must always start
with a deep conviction. You reach
the conclusion that you have a great need for Him in your life and you can’t
make it without Him. You search
for Him and reach out to Him unlike you’ve ever done before; this time with a
great zeal that reflects the depth of your discovery.
You find yourself searching for Him for certain reasons.
You need Him to forgive your sins. You
need Him to help you straighten up your life. You
need Him to defeat the spiritual enemy who made your life miserable.
You discovered that the world is in no position to give you life.
You found out that merely going to church and participating in its
activities does not fill your heart. Without
a conviction similar to those mentioned here, there will be no real movement
towards God.
Usually, a mental conviction is accompanied by emotions and feelings.
Both push you towards God. When
you reach that point, you start looking for God everywhere until you find Him.
You cease to become merely a church visitor or a participant in its activities.
You become a person who searches diligently for meeting God.
Practically, you need to convince yourself of you need Him to give you a
fulfilling life and give you His grace to change your life.
Above all, you need His Holy Spirit to dwell continually inside you.
If your conviction of your need for Him is great, then your search for
God’s grace will bring dramatic changes in your life that will last for a long
time, and in most cases could remain for a lifetime.
Now, we go back to the above story about the Pharisee and the tax
collector. The Pharisee was a person
who doesn’t feel that he needs God. On
the other hand, we meet the tax collector who was in great need for God.
He felt that he is a sinner and needs God’s forgiveness.
The Pharisee used to pray many times daily, as many of us pray today, and
he used to go the temple and be a part of its activities, similar to what many
of us do nowadays. He was an
authoritative man in religion, but unfortunately, he did not feel he needed God.
Consequently, he did not welcome the work of God in his life, which means
he was left without justifications, grace, spiritual life, or any closeness to
God. So, while he was in the center
of the religion, he was far away from a real spiritual life.
The tax collector was a man who had conviction of his wrong doings.
He realized that only God could forgive his sins and help him out of his
sinful life. His mental conviction was accompanied by a great sense of
humbleness, sorrow for his sins, and feeling of unworthiness even to raise his
face to God. As you can conclude
from this story, a good conviction of the need to God is always joined by great
feelings, emotions, zeal, and humbleness. Our
Lord said that the tax collector went down to his house justified, which means
he was touched by the grace of God, rewarded the forgiveness of his sins, and
was given a new life that put him in the right spiritual path.
In summary, the conviction of needing Him is the beginning of a
spiritual life. It is wonderful that the conviction is so great that it changes
a person’s love once and for all. Think
about
In addition, you don’t need the conviction that you need Him in the
beginning of your spiritual life only, but this conviction should accompany you
for the rest of your life. It
becomes the norms of your spiritual life. It
leads you to the humbleness that puts you at the beginning of the road and helps
you to open the heavenly treasures of spirituality.
Moreover, if you loose this conviction in the future, you may loose your
spiritual life again.
So, how can I start a spiritual life? Search yourself until you uncover
your deepest need for God. Once you
know it, go forward to meet God as a person who is in great need.
The second question is, ‘how can I continue in a spiritual life? Take
Him as your main objective in life. Every
time you meet Him or serve Him, feel the eminent need for Him and cry out for
His help from the depths of your heart.
This is what happened to the Fathers of the Church as well.
They lived hungry and thirsty for God, and they felt a great need to be
attached to Him every day and every hour of their lives. They even left the
entire world to live in the wilderness alone, so they will not be disturbed by
other things that might take them away from God, whom they loved so dearly.
Finally, remember the Lord’s words “For without me you can do
nothing” (John 15:5)